Tuesday, 23 August 2011

Little bit, I'm changing for the better

Assalamualaikum and hello to my beloved readers,

Recently, I read a blog to write shorter article is easier to read and understand. Now, I am trying my best to make my entries shorter and easily read as well as understood.

I am current in Ramadhan month. It is a month for Muslims to fast. This year is one of the most memorable Ramadhan in my entire life. I went for my umrah for the second time during the first two weeks of Ramadhan. It was more than wonderful, amazing or any other fascinating words I could describe. Only Allah knows my feelings while I was there. I went there with my mum, my little brother and my uncle. My mum had an intention and desire to take me to Mecca after completing my diploma. We planned after I finished my examination and left to Mecca before I even received my results. Even though there were a lot of challenges there but I am thankful that Allah chose and select and also let me see the Kaabah another time. The tears of my heart shed in my prayers. When we had to leave, the truth was I was not ready. I fell in love with Mecca. Until I reached my room in Malaysia, I still cry at nights because I miss to pray there. It was peaceful but I could not describe it. I miss Mecca. Being there made me also realized, how much a mother could love a daughter. My mum is the best mother ever. She pushed me on my wheelchair during every Tawaaf umrah and sunat and also during Saie. To me, Allah let us to be there to perform our ibadah only for Him. He gave my mum the strength and good health. I am very thankful for that. Alhamdulillah.

When I am home, I am trying to change the better and the best in me. I still hope I can go there again and this time with my mum and dad.

There was a funny story when we were on our back to Malaysia. We had to transfer from Jeddah to Muscat then to Kuala Lumpur. When we were in Muscat and boarding to Kuala Lumpur, the officer there asked me and my mum to go to special gate for wheelchairs. When it was time to leave, he forgot about us and the plane left us. Then, my mum had to explain to another officer regarding our situation and fortunately for us we get to fly to Bahrain and back to Kuala Lumpur for free because it was not our fault and we were earlier while waiting at the gate. Now, we are safely home but I am longing for Mecca.

Saturday, 23 July 2011

Completed second part of my education.

Assalamualaikum and good day to my beloved readers,

I know it has been few months since I last updated my blog. I miss you. But, actually I have been busy with my studies and my life as well. I had completed my diploma in Accountancy this July 2011. That was the second part of my education. My first part was when I completed my SPM in 2008. Alhamdulillah and I am very thankful that Allah still gives me opportunities and chances to continue my studies. It was not easy but I am never going to give up on hoping for the best from Him. All of us will experience the ups and downs in life and so do I.

When I first reached to UiTM,  I admit that I was really scared to step to the new world. I was afraid to have new friends because I know it is hard to get along with new people. Luckily for me, I could get along with all my mates just fine. I am really glad for that. I was also scared if I could be accepted. I realized that I do not think that I have to worry on being accepted because all I need to be is myself and be on my best behaviour. During the orientation, all the seniors were really nice and good to me and they still are. We are still keeping in touch and concern for each others. Now, when I am already completed my two-year diploma, I realized how I miss those days so much. Although I cannot turn back time, each memories are fresh in my mind.

I got accepted to UiTM on 27 June 2009. The first semester was good. During this semester, I took eight subjects. To me, the lecturers were good but tough especially my business lecturer but she has a lot of experiences and loves to tell to us. Sometimes I felt like I was listening more of a story-telling than lecturing. It was a good teaching technique because it does not bore me but I am not sure with the others. Unfortunately, I did not get an A on her subject but I am satisfied. My pointer was good during this semester. My friends' pointer were great too. Some of them scored perfectly. Alhamdulillah.

In my second semester in January 2010, this semester was quite tough and challenging not only because of the subjects I was taking but also the lecturers. I also took eight subjects and it was challenging. My life there was also very tough when I cried a lot and once in my classroom. Sometimes I just have to let it out. However, during this semester I was starting to get to know my classmates better especially the boys. For me, this is important because it helps to build my confidence. There was one lecturer of mine who was teaching us. I love her technique. She was firm and tough and also she knows what she wants. She kind of a perfectionist. Most of my friends were terrified of her including me but I love the way she is because the more I look at her, the more I see myself in her. I was kind of like her. When I know how I was, I started to change just a BIT. Just let loose. There was a misunderstanding happened in her class but I would not blame anyone. Starting at that moment, I always make myself more alert than I already am. I never felt that embarrassed but it taught something. The good thing is, the lecturer still says hi to me whenever we meet. I remembered that day, she asked me whether I applied to further my studies to overseas or not. Then, I realized that she concerns. My result was good but slightly declined. However, this semester gave new experiences to me. Thank you, Allah.

My third semester was in July 2010. This semester was very hectic and tiring. Plus, it was Ramadhan before semester ended. My friends and I were getting really close. We  even threw a break-fasting feast and birthdat celebration. During this semester, I sacrificed my sleeping hours. In stead of sleeping for eight hours, I only slept for three hours. My whole life I never regret in doing anything but this time, I regretted for sacrifice my sleeping hours. Now, I always advise my little sister and brother to not skip sleeping hours. It is a bad idea.
When I was skipping my sleeping hours, I was doing my revision but I think my body was tired and my mind was not ready. As a result, I cried for months when I got unsatisfied result. My parents were still proud of me because they knew it was tough. Well, I learnt my lessons. NEVER SKIP  SLEEPING HOURS. But 2010 was not my year.

My final semester was in early 2011. Even though this semester was the most hectic, tiring, busy and tough semester, but I love it very much. I guessed I love this semester because I felt so close with my friends and the  lecturers were amazing. I really hope that they can teach me again. I really enjoyed every subject but some subjects required reading but not a problem to me. This semester, there was a lot of presentations and assignments. In addition, every due date was very close to one another. Throughout this semester, my friends and I were being cooperative to complete the assignments on time. I had time to do complete revision and enjoyed every moment. My result improved drastically and I was so happy. When this semester ended, I realized that I love my life here and also my friends.

That is all for now.

   

Thursday, 10 February 2011

On leave

I am currently on leave today until Sunday. All UiTM students were informed that all lecturers HAVE to attend a conference at the main campus Shah Alam. Even my lecturers are not sure what is the purpose then how am I supposed to know why? Well, for this four-day-leave, I already made plans. The thing is I HATE my classes to be cancelled because replacing classes for me is very difficult. Oh, well, "nothing I can do, total eclipse of the heart". Well, I just love that song.

THURSDAY 10/2/2011
  • Finish my MAF330 Tutorials
  • Do some extra tutorials of FAR360 on Auditing

FRIDAY 11/2/2011

  • Study FAR300
  • Study MAF320

SATURDAY 12/2/2011

  • Have therapy from 8am-10am
  • Study MAF330

SUNDAY 13/2/2011

  • Most probably my best friends are visiting me
  • Go out for a while

My common will begin on 26th February. I really hope to score my final semester.